Because He’s my Father

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Father I’ve prayed

Father I’ve begged

Father I’ve asked

Father I’ve sought You

Father I’ve put it in Your hands

 

I can’t hang onto it

I can’t carry it

I can’t see what’s coming

So I’ve put it in Your hands

 

Three times, Four times, FORTY times

Father I’ve lost count

of every time I turn to You

And put it in your hands

 

People ask me why

Why I pray

Why I seek You

Why I ask You

Why I beg You

Why I put it in Your hands

 

I can only say

Because He saved me

Because He knows what’s ahead

Because He has the power to give or take away

Because it takes the weight off my shoulders

and makes me feel lighter than air

Because for the most important reason of all

He’s my Father

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The Traveller and Friends

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Right now I am facing a hard trial. Except it isn’t a trial, it’s a blessing, but one that makes me both want to jump up and down for joy, and bolt all at once! Most of you would think that I would not hesitate for this chance but I am, strange is it not? Then again you do not know what this blessing is. So let me write a poem to explain such a blessing:

Traveller:

I have prayed a prayer

I have sought Your face on this matter

I have petitioned day and night

While at the same time been afraid that You

Will or Would not hear

I don’t know which I would be afraid of more

Until one evening the Most High answered

and said:

“This prayer has been granted for your sake”

What am I to do

Such a prayer I have prayed for years

I do not know what to do

with such an answered prayer

 

Friends of Traveller:

Such an opportunity

Such a blessing

We have prayed the same prayer

since you were young

We thank the Father for such a blessing

 

Traveller:

A blessing it is

An answered prayer it may be

But I am terrified to take it

Yet I am terrified not to

 

Friends of Traveller:

But you must

For this has been an ongoing prayer

that has finally been answered

And to be terrified of such a thing

Is preposterous

For there is more security in this life

Than in the one you are living

 

Traveller:

While what you say is true

there is one thing that is not

In the way I live there is a security

For that is the only way of life I know

For in taking this blessing

What if He takes it away

I do not want to go through that

That is what I fear most of all

That He shall take it away

Once I am settled in this blessing

 

Friend of Traveller:

There is naught to fear

For it is all a blessing

You shall now be like us

And have a life

that you have missed

until now

 

Traveller:

I shall take this blessing

But it is not with out fear

For what I fear may come to pass yet

It is not that I fear it in the long run

But that I fear

That once He sees me as established

He shall take it all away once again

I fear that He will be angry with me

I fear I will become unworthy

I fear all this and more

 

Friends of Traveller:

But that is silly

He would not be displeased with you

For something He chose to give

For He knows that if told no

You would have stopped asking

He knows that you would not go against it

He wants to bless you with such a thing

Just keep Him in the center of it all

You can’t go wrong there

For if He tells you time to go

You shall

For that is your nature

And that is why He has trusted you

With such a gift.

 

Traveller:

I see that you are right

I will go forth in this

I will pass this fear

And I shall keep Him in the center

For life would be bleak and empty with out Him

Tree and Me

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Have you hugged a tree today?

though it may seem silly

it’s quite therapeutic

It gets you over a fear of seeming silly

Quite true

It can ignite a conversation

or it can lead people to thinking you quite loony

But have you hugged a tree today?

 

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Growing up

Small I may seem

But big I will be

Don’t let my size fool you

I’ll be big before you know it

Don’t look down on me

Because I’m not as big as you

One day I’ll be as tall as you

When I grow up

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Family

Family that’s what we are

Solid as a tree trunk

With many different branches

Some more nuttier than others

But all still come from the same roots

You are and Family you shall always be

Because the nut never falls far from the tree

And when you’re on the ground you’re closer

To the roots than where you began

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Different

I stand out, I don’t fit in

While everyone else is wearing dull colors

I’m wearing all bright

But that’s alright

You are you and I am me

We don’t have to be the same

There’s always got to be someone different in the crowd

 

This is dedicated to some dear friends of ours who introduced us to tree hugging. Sorry but we’re missing one, as my brother didn’t want to pose for a “hug a tree” photo.

Do You Remember

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Do You remember

remember that day so long ago

when You decided that it was time

for me to be born

 

When You said

I have plans for this baby girl

I placed her here

and its time for her to go forth

 

Do You remember

remember that day so long ago

when You decided that it was time

for me to be born

 

When You said to Your Angels

Watch over her

Its time for her to face the world

But she never need fear

For she shall never be alone

 

Do You remember

remember that day so long ago

when You decided that it was time

for me to be born

 

You said it will be hard

to see her go through what she must

but in the end

I will be the proudest Daddy alive

To know that I have such a daughter as she

 

Do you remember

remember that day so long ago

when you decided that it was time

for me to be born

 

It’s been 17 years

since that day so long ago

when You gave me to my parents

told me it was time to go

time to start the life

that You made me for

 

Do You remember

remember that day so long ago

when you decided that it was time

for me to be born

The Path

Afula and Crafts 021 signedIts hard

Its narrow

Its not like any

I’ve ever faced

People ask why

I take the hard road

But I say why not?

Yes it is hard

and Yes it isn’t easy

Yes its not conventional

It seems silly to you

to take the hardest path

But in the end

you will understand

why I took the hardest path

Don’t worry

there are others

on the same path

for the same reason as I am

for narrow and hard pressed

is the way to life

What I cannot see

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Blurry back ground

blurry to the eyes

we can’t be sure what is out there

 

Only one can

And that’s my Father in Heaven

and to Him I trust what I cannot see

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Father doesn’t always tell us the plan. He at times gives us the big picture but not the details of that picture. The only details we can see is what we’re living in right now, not what’s ahead of us.

Its hard, its never been easy. It wasn’t easy for Noah, it wasn’t easy for Abraham, it wasn’t easy for Joseph. Father gave Joseph dreams of his family bowing to him. A bigger picture to be sure, but no details as to how it would come about, and I’m pretty sure that if he knew the details the story wouldn’t have happened like it did. So I’m learning to stop asking for the details and just for the bigger picture.

That’s what the picture inspired me on.

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I’M DONE!!! WHOOOOHOOOOO! I cannot tell you how happy I am to be done!

I guess I should tell you what I’m so happy about. I finished my cross stich! OH YEAH I’m so happy! Why you ask, well

one: I’ve had it for almost 6 months

two: it drove me insane, because even though I had the blue print for it, there weren’t any lines on the cloth so I lost count, messed up and well things went a little haywire. Which is why I put it down for a few months.

Last month Mom put in lines when I asked her for help. After that it just went smoothly, and I am now done.

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It’s a cross stich of an Australian flower Birds of Paradise. A beautiful flower but, after the frustrating time I had with it I have a bit of a dislike for those flowers.

I don’t mind cross stich, but, I think Erin’s much better at it than I am. She’s almost done with hers, she just has a bit left.

I can understand how people both love and dislike cross stich.

Its going into my scriptures, and it’s staying there for awhile! It was fun when it wasn’t confusing, and I may do another one but that won’t be for a little bit.

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I’m glad for a new book marker though. It will be nice to have an official book marker for my Bible. And my Mom will tell you I love book markers. I’m always making them when I can, I don’t use half of them, they’re just fun to make.

It gets me excited to read my Bible so I can use it. Not a good thing to get me to read the Bible. I need to work on that.

I remember one of the first book markers I made. It was made from paper, and it said Chapter by Chapter Book by Book, for when I was reading the Bible from front to back. To remind myself that its just chapter by chapter and book by book.    That was one of the first ones the others had flowers and stripes. It became a fad among us kids. I think I was the only one that kept it up.

But that’s my news I’m finished my cross stich. It may seem strange to you that I’m so happy to be done, but, I love to finish my crafts so then I can use them, or be able to say I’m done. I’m also glad that its just done and the frustrating-ness of it is over. Not to mention that my Grandmothers can’t see it up close and see the stiches and go over the blue print. BOY would you see all the mistakes. You didn’t hear that from me, as far as its concerned it’s a job well done.

Light on the Horizon

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Looking over the valley

Watching the sunset

Feeling the wind

Beautiful, spectacular every time

The colors, the clouds

Except tonight I do not see it

It seems so gray and empty

Like a world without hope

But then in the horizon

I can see a bit of color

Letting me know not all is lost

I am still here

I am still alive

Therefore there is still hope

The sunsets still have color

And will continue to

Even when I cannot see them any longer

So I will praise you Abba

For the hope that you have given me

Though it may seem small

And hard to see

In a world of gray with no hope

It’s still there full of promise of a day that is coming

Joyful Thoughts

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Just as we thought

On this day

Yahushua is waiting for us to

Finally call on Him

Up there He hears us and

Listens to us even if we don’t make any sense

Tough though it may be to believe that

He listens when even

Our family and friends think of

Us as nuts and questions our sanity

Goodness coming from their

Heart they try to understand but

Try as they might no one can understand as our

Savior can.

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quick news update

Yesterday a bomb exploded on a bus in Tel-Aviv, 10 people were injured.

Israel and Hamas declared a cease fire last night after 8 days of fighting.

Goodbye

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Here today gone tomorrow

Life is but a moment

Living but a memory

 

Bringing joy where ever you go

Leaving behind a lasting glow

 

We will miss you

But, we know that its time

For you to go home

 

We will see you one day

Free of sorrow

Free of pain

 

How hard it is

To let you go

But, we know

You will be safe

In the arms of our Creator

 

No longer is that ever ready smile

Made to brighten a persons day here

Only a lasting glow

Of memories treasured

In our hearts

           Forever

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This morning my family got some very sad news. We are all still trying to process it right now.

As I wrote in a past blog post that we went down to Samaria, to see some friends who were with the Waller group picking grapes. We hadn’t seen them in around 2 years, and the wife of the family was dealing with breast cancer.

We’ve known their family since I was around 11 or 12. Their son and daughter were good friends to my brother and I, their whole family was like a second family to us. The wife was a second mom to me, and her 4 children like extended siblings, her husband was like an uncle.

So when we went down we knew it might be the last time we saw her. Little did we know how true that was. We got an email this morning saying that she died yesterday.

It hasn’t totally hit us yet, I‘m still coming to terms that she’s actually gone. She was always a strong woman. Always so happy and willing to look at the bright side. I’m glad she is in no more pain now. But, its still hard, I know its harder for her family.

I can’t believe she’s gone!

Father Yah: I pray that you would help us all as we grieve her death, and that you would be especially with her family.