Hearts: Can you trust them?

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Can I trust my heart?

This is a valid question, and one many including myself have asked. You’ve heard and possibly even said, “ follow your heart” “listen to your heart” or “ what’s your heart telling you”. You may have said or heard the exact opposite, “ Don’t listen to your heart, it can be deceitful” “ you can’t make proper decisions with your heart because it isn’t logical” and other things.

Lets look at this scripturally first, then we’ll look at it in our own lives.

(Psa 10:17)  יהוה, You have heard the desire of the lowly ones; You prepare their heart; You incline Your ear,

(Psa 37:4)  And delight yourself in יהוה, And let Him give you the desires of your heart.

(Psa 84:5)  Blessed is the man whose strength is in You; Your ways are in their hearts.

(Pro 3:5)  Trust in יהוה with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding;

(Pro 16:9)  A man’s heart plans his way, But יהוה establishes his steps.

Each of these verses have something to say about the heart. They tell us that our heart gives us ideas and can in fact be right about some things, but we need to give it over to Father so that He can guide us.

Now lets look at the verses say the almost opposite of the ones above.

Pro 28:26  He who trusts in his own heart is a fool, But he who walks wisely is delivered.

Mat 15:18  “But what comes out of the mouth comes from the heart, and these defile the man.
Mat 15:19  “For out of the heart come forth wicked reasonings, murders, adulteries, whorings, thefts, false witnessings, slanders.

Mar_7:21 For from within, out of the heart of men, proceed evil thoughts, adulteries, fornications, murders,

Then we have it saying that its foolish to trust your heart, but if you walk wisely you are saved. The beginning of wisdom is the fear of YHWH, that’s somewhere in Proverbs.

Matthew gives us good reason not to trust the heart, for it is filled with vile things.

Still yet:

(Psa_119:11)  I have treasured up Your word in my heart, That I might not sin against You.

If He and His word is in us we don’t need to fear what is in our heart, for He has said that He will write his commands upon our hearts. We will still need to be cautious and continuously check it for what is not good but, for the most part all we want to do is follow Him. And so that is what our heart will want too.

We can’t always trust our heart but, we would also be foolish to shove it to the side and not check and see what’s inside. To discern what is right in there and to cast out what is not. Because the more we check ourselves and what is in our heart, and replace the bad with the good, the less wickedness will dwell there. We will also be able to catch it faster, for we will have a better sense of right and wrong.

But, we need to be careful, because there are times when we are afraid to see what’s in there. We don’t want to see it, for two possible different reasons.

One: Afraid that it won’t be right.

Two: Afraid that it is.

Both these aren’t reasons to be scared, because if it isn’t right then you can replace it with something that is, and if it is right well that’s another time to count when your heart was right. Can you see where I’m going here?

You can’t trust your heart 100% but, you shouldn’t ignore it either. Because Father puts it in our hearts first then confirms it. We always need to inspect our hearts and make sure they are right with Him, then if they are clean we have no reason to be afraid of what’s in there.

I guess that is the conclusion. Search your own heart, is Father trying to show you some thing though it?



Heaven Above the Clouds

When I was little I thought that Heaven sat on the clouds, and where there was a break Father could look down on us.

I know that it was juvenile of me, but everyone used to tell me that Heaven was above the clouds, and pictures that showed Heaven showed it sitting on the clouds. I used to sit and look at the clouds and wonder what Heaven looked like.

When the clouds were white and fluffy I knew that all was probably well, but when they were dark and stormy I knew something was wrong and I just hoped it wasn’t something I did.

I also used to believe that you couldn’t go above the clouds because then you would see Heaven and that was only a place where “good dead” people went.

Every time I saw clouds I thought,”Fathers right up there with all His Angels”. And in every break of cloud he would look down and smile at me, except when I was being bad. But, He didn’t frown at me, or get mad, He would just get very sad and start to cry. And that affected me more than any amount of anger could. Because I hated the thought that I was letting Him down, and disappointing Him.

My picture of Heaven was put to the test when I was 9. I had only been in a plane twice before that one when I was a baby, and the second time I was older but I slept pretty much the whole way. I had no problem with flying, it was when I realized that we were going to be above the clouds. In the clouds I didn’t mind because I was closer to Him but not quite at Heaven, because you have to be dead to go to heaven you know.

But, when I realized we would be above the clouds I freaked out, not physically of course but inside. I thought for sure I would see heaven then get hit with a bolt of lightning, or just strike me dead some how. My only comforting thought was that I would be closer to heaven when I died, less space to travel.

What confused me even more no one else seemed concerned. After we finally landed I figured out that the only danger I was in was crashing. Not being struck dead for flying above the clouds.

I learnt on that trip that Heaven isn’t on the clouds but way above it and we can’t see it. I must say to it kinda tore at my heart, that my picture of heaven and Father smiling down wasn’t 100% truth. It took me awhile to get over that.

Still to today, when I see clouds when I’m either above or below I still picture Him and all His Angels, with all the “good dead” people, up there watching me down below. Smiling watching me grow up, and when I make a mistake they get sad.

Ok this is juvenile but it helps me feel closer to Him, than when I think of Heaven being up in space like people say. When I fly and the clouds are under me I always think of it…

What I cannot see

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Blurry back ground

blurry to the eyes

we can’t be sure what is out there


Only one can

And that’s my Father in Heaven

and to Him I trust what I cannot see

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Father doesn’t always tell us the plan. He at times gives us the big picture but not the details of that picture. The only details we can see is what we’re living in right now, not what’s ahead of us.

Its hard, its never been easy. It wasn’t easy for Noah, it wasn’t easy for Abraham, it wasn’t easy for Joseph. Father gave Joseph dreams of his family bowing to him. A bigger picture to be sure, but no details as to how it would come about, and I’m pretty sure that if he knew the details the story wouldn’t have happened like it did. So I’m learning to stop asking for the details and just for the bigger picture.

That’s what the picture inspired me on.

Would He approve?

A friend sent out an email this morning asking people to type a guest post for their blog. I was in the process when I got side tracked on a different topic.

What junk we put in our mind that we see as harmless, until someone who we know won’t see it that way reads watches or sees it.

Think about it, how many books or movies do we read or watch, would we want Yahushua sitting there watching or reading the same movie or book as you? I know for a fact that I would be embarrassed if He read some of the books I do even if they are innocent to us. Think about it, would you want Yahushua sitting beside you reading the chronicles of Narnia while you comment on the difference of white and black magic? Or while you’re watching Cinderella and saying that its all right because it shows that love conquers all?

Magic is magic, betrayal is betrayal, unclean thoughts and actions are just that. Can you imagine watching “twilight zone” and Yahushua coming in and sat down next to you, while you watch it after going to Church or reading the Bible?

I can’t say that I’m not guilty of this because I am. I am guilty of all these things. I may not have watched or read the things that I’ve mentioned but I’ve read or watched things similar or other things that I would not want Yahushua to read or watch with me.

But why do we then read or watch these things if we are supposed to be blameless and pure? I know we can never be perfect but should we not strive to be so?

Therefore reading things that go against what Yahweh considers as good and right such as

Gal 5:19  And the works of the flesh are well-known, which are these: adultery, whoring, uncleanness, indecency,
Gal 5:20  idolatry, drug sorcery, hatred, quarrels, jealousies, fits of rage, selfish ambitions, dissensions, factions,
Gal 5:21  envy, murders, drunkenness, wild parties, and the like – of which I forewarn you, even as I also said before, that those who practice such as these shall not inherit the reign of Elohim

Filling our mind with such things, and messing up our emotions with books and movies that are best left alone until much later in life, that cannot be what Father wants us to do.

So maybe next time we go to watch a movie or pick up a book as you’re watching or reading or even before that, ask yourself; if Yahushua walked in right now and said “what’s up? what are you reading or whatcha watching?” then proceeded to pick up the book or sit down to watch the movie. Would He say “not bad” or would he be disgusted by what you’re filling your head and heart with?

Think on that, we all need to think on it.

Psalm 113:3

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From the rising of the sun to its going down the Name of YHWH is praised

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I memorized this verse a few years ago, actually the whole chapter but, I remember this verse particularly. Now every time I see the sun set or rise I think of this verse.

Truly, He gave us these things as a thing to look forward to. Seeing His beauty first thing in the morning and then seeing it before heading off to bed. What a way to start and end a day!

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Both these pictures are of the same sunset. I haven’t been able to catch the sunrise as that means getting to the top of the hill at 5:30 in the morning. I don’t think so.

Forgive your enemy

I was reading in Matt chapter 4, where Yahushua talks about loving your enemy.

Here in Israel, we’ve been getting rockets everyday and more than 2 or 3, we’re talking about around 100-300 rockets a day. Some even with enough range to reach Jerusalem and Tel-Aviv. That means over 3.5 million Israelis are in danger, and if one of those rockets (fajr 5) hits Tel-Aviv’s metro center, it would shut practically everything down, the economy, school system. It’s a big threat.

A recap of the 4th day of fighting

Rockets Stuck Israel: 170

Iron Dome interceptions: 57

Israeli’s wounded: 5

Strikes by the IDF: 300

Things are really ramping up. I’m feeling more anger over the injustice that the world’s throwing at Israel than being scared that I’m in a country that’s had over 600 rockets fired at it and even more are being fired.

People think that all of a sudden this just sprung up out of no where. No, this has been going on all year, Israel is just getting fed up with it and wants to put a stop to it.

Maybe its hard for you to imagine but, imagine if:

Sydney and the area around it got hit by rockets. What would you do? well you would demand war on the country that fired, immediately right? Of course it’s a logical answer.

or If Vancouver got hit, well Canada as a whole would be in an up roar, and wanting justice done.

What about LA? yeah that’s what I thought, someone hit LA and they’ve made themselves a permanent enemy of Americans all over.

But the entire southern region and two major cities in Israel, you could care less, actually you think that Israel deserves it. Because all you’ve seen are the children in Gaza that are suffering. But, what about the kids here that aren’t having much of a childhood because they’re running to a bomb shelter?

(<-from the haaretz newspaper)

I’ve got cousins this age, I wouldn’t want them to have to live like this always running for the nearest bomb shelter. Nor for my Uncles and Aunts to have to constantly wonder if their kids are alright after each siren.

Now back to the topic at hand. Scripture says to love your enemy as yourself and do good to those who hate you. Israel has sent help to countries that hate them, they’ve sent aid to many different places including Gaza. They sent help to Christ Church when they had their earthquake (yeah you probably forgot about what happened there). So no matter how many hate them they still reach out a hand to help people. To me that’s a good example we can follow.

I know many Christians are doing shoe box gifts this time of year (I don’t do christmas anymore but, I remember doing the shoe box thing when I was really little), what if you sent some of them to Afghanistan and Iraq. You’re thinking WHAT!? After all that they’ve done to us? Well, its not really all they’ve done to you. You’re the one in their country, destroying their homes, and many more things. The people haven’t done anything it’s the Taliban, but that’s beside the point right now.

How many children there could you bless with a simple shoe box gift. That could most likely be the only new thing they receive this year. That would be doing as Yahushua said to love your enemies as yourself. This is what Israel has done.

So before you say that Israel is nothing but, a murderer, think about what they’ve done for others that hate them, yet they don’t let that stop them. Think about what your country has done for others that hate you. America either has buddy buddies or total enemies. Have you ever sent a team over into Iraq just to help people and give them food and clothing, absolutely not! what about medical, no because you can’t stomach the thought of them getting anything like that. Well Israel did, they sent a team into Syria to do just that. Same as they’ve done for many other counties that would rather see them at the end of a rifle dead, than living and helping them.

That’s loving your enemies. That’s doing the right thing.

Support Israel, don’t let them fight on their own.

A visit to the Eternal Capital

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We are back! I do believe I made improvement on my fear. Its not as bad as it once was, and it was fun. My parents (especially my dad) was like take the picture, take the picture! Get over your fear, and I’m like you keep doing that and I’m Not going to take the picture, thank you very much, now backup. I don’t like to take pictures under the stress of someone telling me what to do because I already know. Now if the person wants to suggest something that’s different.

Anyway, our time there was great. We got the 7:40 bus from Afula, we went shopping for a backpack for Joseph and scarves for Erin and I. We found the scarves and found Joseph a backpack.

After that we went to the Imperial, then met up with a friend, got pizza before sunset, because that Night was the beginning of Sukkot, and therefore a high Sabbath. It was SO awesome! Did I mention how much I love it there? That night we went to the wall, then headed back for bed.

The next morning after breakfast we headed down to the city of David (we checked out too). We spent most of the morning there. It was good.

OH!!! I found out more about my almost top favorite thing about the city of David! My extended family thinks I’m crazy, my family isn’t so keen on my interest with it either, but there’s just something about it that makes it so real for me. It’s the toilet. Amazing, huh? I hope you weren’t expecting something more exciting.

In area G they have excavated a house a huge house actually, and they say it was a rich mans house, and in that house they found a toilet.

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See the square piece of rock with a hole in it? Well that’s the toilet.

I heard this from a tour guide (I listened in while they stopped in area G), I’ll just do a briefing.

How do they know that this was a wealthy house? By the size? Yeah maybe, but you probably know a low income family with a 2 floor house too. They found a chair made from wood, and this wood was from way up north, and only a rich man could afford it or a well off one. But how do they know that it was a RICH mans house? Simple ( you know where I’m going with this don’t you? of course you do), the TOILET! At that time, if you needed to go to the bathroom you head out into the field. Only a very Rich and important man would have a toilet, and indoor septic. You might ask how they know it’s a toilet, well… the hole in the middle is a good clue. Another good clue is the fact that they found um… excrement. Fossilized of course, and I find this fascinating they were able to send it in and find out what this person ate. The most likely last person to use it ate… OH the suspense! Raw meat! How do they know this? They found worms in the excrement, which you only find in raw meat because if you cook it there are no more worms (that is, they are dead).

Maybe I should become an archeologist. I love this kind of thing, but, no I think I would rather be behind a camera. A good thought though, maybe I’ll take it up on the side?

The fact that they found a toilet to me, proves that it was a house, a home, it was lived in. And it makes it so much more alive, and real, not just a house that was excavated but a home. The your guide said more about it but, I’ll let you find out for yourself.

When I was listening I was so excited! I always wondered and wanted to know more about it. I loved hearing about it! In fact I almost jumped up and down afterwards. I know, that is SO mature. Not really, but, that made my day. Father knew what would make my day. He knew that learning more about the toilet (so interesting isn’t it), would bring joy to my day. No matter how weird that it. And I know you agree with my extended family, I’m crazy.

I just spent most of a post talking about an ancient toilet. How weird is that?!

After the city of David we wandered to the square, then walked back down and sat by the Menorah.

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Then after that I went for a 45 minute walk around. Spotted 2 minionite ladies, got a picture of the zion gate. Then met up with Mom and Dad, started back up to the square picked up Erin and Ben, and saw this.

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They were heading down to the Wall, and singing as they walked. You know, even though I don’t have proof of Jewish heritage, I feel so proud when I see the IDF. If I could when I turn 18 and it is Fathers will, I would not hesitate to join them. But, that’s another subject.

After the sunset we got supper, and went to catch the tram to the bus station. As we were waiting they started telling people to move away. Apparently, someone left a bag and there was a possibility of a bomb. Sorry but the camera was in the pack and I didn’t get a picture. They sectioned off the area. About 10 minutes later the trams were back on track. It was a false alarm. So, while in Israel do not leave your bag behind.

We made it to the bus station for the 7:40 bus back. Ha, that’s funny I didn’t even think about that! 7:40 there and 7:40 back. It was a good 2 days.