The Traveller and Friends

Afula and Tiberias 005 signed

Right now I am facing a hard trial. Except it isn’t a trial, it’s a blessing, but one that makes me both want to jump up and down for joy, and bolt all at once! Most of you would think that I would not hesitate for this chance but I am, strange is it not? Then again you do not know what this blessing is. So let me write a poem to explain such a blessing:

Traveller:

I have prayed a prayer

I have sought Your face on this matter

I have petitioned day and night

While at the same time been afraid that You

Will or Would not hear

I don’t know which I would be afraid of more

Until one evening the Most High answered

and said:

“This prayer has been granted for your sake”

What am I to do

Such a prayer I have prayed for years

I do not know what to do

with such an answered prayer

 

Friends of Traveller:

Such an opportunity

Such a blessing

We have prayed the same prayer

since you were young

We thank the Father for such a blessing

 

Traveller:

A blessing it is

An answered prayer it may be

But I am terrified to take it

Yet I am terrified not to

 

Friends of Traveller:

But you must

For this has been an ongoing prayer

that has finally been answered

And to be terrified of such a thing

Is preposterous

For there is more security in this life

Than in the one you are living

 

Traveller:

While what you say is true

there is one thing that is not

In the way I live there is a security

For that is the only way of life I know

For in taking this blessing

What if He takes it away

I do not want to go through that

That is what I fear most of all

That He shall take it away

Once I am settled in this blessing

 

Friend of Traveller:

There is naught to fear

For it is all a blessing

You shall now be like us

And have a life

that you have missed

until now

 

Traveller:

I shall take this blessing

But it is not with out fear

For what I fear may come to pass yet

It is not that I fear it in the long run

But that I fear

That once He sees me as established

He shall take it all away once again

I fear that He will be angry with me

I fear I will become unworthy

I fear all this and more

 

Friends of Traveller:

But that is silly

He would not be displeased with you

For something He chose to give

For He knows that if told no

You would have stopped asking

He knows that you would not go against it

He wants to bless you with such a thing

Just keep Him in the center of it all

You can’t go wrong there

For if He tells you time to go

You shall

For that is your nature

And that is why He has trusted you

With such a gift.

 

Traveller:

I see that you are right

I will go forth in this

I will pass this fear

And I shall keep Him in the center

For life would be bleak and empty with out Him

Miracles

Today was another walk to the library. It was good. My mom and I went shopping this afternoon I got a pair of black leggings, because one of my skirts barely cover my knee so I figured I need some kind of leggings. Mom also found a shirt that she likes. She has been looking for awhile, so I’m very glad she has found one, now for the rest of her wardrobe. LOL. We haven’t gotten new clothes since 2011 spring. So we are all getting practically new wardrobes.

totaling (for the majority)

  • 2-4 shirts
  • 2-3 bottoms (pants/skirts)
  • 3-4 pairs socks
  • 1 pair Pj’s
  • 2 pairs shoes
  • 6 undies
  • 1-2 pairs of long johns/tights
  • 2 undershirts

That is the basics. Imagine having only that for your wardrobe. And it is exactly the same for about 7-8 months.

It reminds me of all the miracles/blessings that I have forgotten. Our clothes endured backpacking for over 7 months, and I can say 1/2 of my clothes were from 2010 and before! But they didn’t fall apart until after we finished our trip. Ever wonder how the Israelites clothes lasted through 40 years in the wilderness (Deu 29:5  “And I have led you forty years in the wilderness. Your garments have not worn out on you, and your sandals have not worn out on your feet.)? It wasn’t because they were top quality (they were home made) but because He kept them until He knew they could get new ones. That is exactly what He did for us.

Another one is, last winter my family rented a cottage in Nova Scotia. There was a neighbour who was the “caretaker” of the house when there was no one staying, he sometimes asked my Dad and older brother to help him. And more often than once he would bring over things such as food from his freezer as a thank you. But this is one I remember the most. It was grocery shopping and library day as we lived 1/2 hour –45 min out of the main town we usually only went once a week. We went as usual but we knew we didn’t have enough money for all the groceries we needed, we would either go again later another day when the money came in, or we would have to make the food stretch as far as we could. We arrived home with all we could afford. Not 5 minutes after that the neighbour shows up with a trunk full of food even meat which in Canada is getting more and more expensive, we couldn’t afford meat with out straining finances to the Max. I think I cried when I saw that trunk of groceries. Many people who read this blog cannot understand what it feels like to know that by the end of the week you could be on the verge of not starvation but really severe hunger pains. I am almost crying right now remembering. How many times has that happened to my family but it never touched us.

Who ever is reading this remember one thing Yahuweh Never forsakes His people. Even when it seems to be at a dead end and hope is no where in sight, He brings something and we can keep going.

So I think I will end this post here. Think about these stories. You don’t hear about this kind of stuff much any more. Every miracle no matter how small is a miracle. People need to hear of miracles. So please keep telling of the miracles He does in your lives and in the lives of others.