We may

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We may fall down…..

                                 But we don’t have to stay down……..

                                                                                            Yahushua’s given His life…….

So we can put all the dark pain in the past……

                                                                         And shine, bloom, and grow………

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It’s a Win or Lose Situation

We know we aren’t perfect and that we fail. I fail, I do that very easily. But when we say or think, “I’m not perfect. I fail, what could you possibly do with me”, we’re saying that Satan’s won. Why or How you may ask, well its quite simple,

You’ve just said that what Yahushua did wasn’t enough

and that because you still fail and aren’t perfect, He might as well take his plans and go else where.

You just let satan win!

let me quote a song from Ron Kenoly:

It is such fun to see
Such fun to see
Satan lose
It is such fun to see
Such fun to see
Satan lose

Jesus is the Winna mon
The Winna mon
The winna mon
Jesus is the Winna mon
The Winna mon all the time   (2)

It is such fun to see
Such fun to see
Satan lose
It is such fun to see
Such fun to see
Satan lose
Jesus is the Winna mon
The Winna mon
The winna mon
Jesus is the Winna mon
The Winna mon all the time

I am on the winning side
I am on the winning side
The winning side
The winning side
I am on the winning side
The winning side all the time

In Matthew chapter two
Satan lose
When Jesus was born in a manger
And in the wilderness
Satan lose again
At the Mount of Transfiguration
Yeah!

It is such fun to see
Such fun to see
Satan lose
It is such fun to see
Such fun to see
Satan lose
Jesus is the Winna mon
The Winna mon
The winna mon
Jesus is the Winna mon
The Winna mon all the time

At the crucifixion
Satan lose again
When Jesus rose triumphantly
From the grave
And at the ascension
Satan lose
Once more
When I was born again
Yeah!

It is such fun to see
Such fun to see
Satan lose
It is such fun to see
Such fun to see
Satan lose
Jesus is the Winna mon
The Winna mon
The winna mon
Jesus is the Winna mon
The Winna mon all the time

Now try singing this
The Winna mon (7)
Jesus is the Winna mon
The Winna mon all the time  (2)

He’s the Winna
The Winna
The Winna
Jesus is the Winna mon
The Winna mon all the time  (2)

It is such fun to see
Such fun to see
Satan lose
It is such fun to see
Such fun to see
Satan lose

Jesus is the Winna mon.

You can watch the music video at

(my grandma really likes this song, I think my mom and her have a very similar taste in music. But that’s beside the point)

Philippians 1:6 says that He started a good work in us and will continue to perfect it until the day of Yahushua Messiah.

And there are several other verses too.

So when we were Born Again, Satan lost, so don’t let Satan win by saying or thinking that we aren’t good/perfect enough for Father to work through us. He takes things in strides, if He trusts you to do this then by all means you’re ready for it. It doesn’t matter if you’re perfect or not, just as long as you give all you’ve got you’ve got nothing to be afraid of or be ashamed of.

So next time you think about backing out or saying no to Him because you don’t feel or think you’re good enough because you still fail at things, remind yourself that you’re just letting Satan win. I don’t think that’s a good thing because he’s just going to get cocky and bug you all the more because he knows he can get to you.

Instead say, Father gave me this job or has this plan for my life, and He won’t give me more than I can handle. So lets go for it, even though I may not be perfect He thinks I’m good enough for this job.

and BAM, Satan loses again! And Yahushua’s just won a victory, of course He’s already given us the victory, we just have to take the the victory!

My Week!

Shabbat Shalom!

Let me catch you up to speed on this week.

So, nothing big happened earlier this week, but we did go on a day trip to see Little Petra on Thursday. We drove the Kings Way, and through all the mountains. Saw Bedouin camps, and so much more!

The drive was Beautiful, who knew that a place as rugged as this could be so beautiful.

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We had the windows down and the wind blowing in our hair

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It was really neat! It’s smaller than Petra, and archeologist say that Little Petra was probably an important suburb. At Lil Petra you can climb and go into the caves, but in Petra you can’t go into them all. It was really a sight. And if Lil Petra was this good I can only imagine what Petra looks like!

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The people that lived in Petra called the Nabataeans, they were originally from the Saudi Arabia (the Arabian peninsula), and then moved up here 2200 years ago. The Nabataeans controlled a big part of the trade routes. They tolled and protected caravans. Their empire went all the way up to Damascus, to part of the Sinai and the Negev. It wasn’t easy because the Greeks were fighting for this region also. So it was difficult to hang on to it. But despite this they held on and thrived. Until they fell, to the Romans. It didn’t help that because of the spread of Christianity that the trade of frankincense and myrrh were down. As this was their main export. And eventually Petra and other Nabataean towns and achievements were in ruin.

In little Petra, there were many high places where people would sacrifice to other gods. There was even a spot where they did human sacrifices. I didn’t get to see it but my dad and brother climbed up there, and saw it.

It was over all a good day!

Then yesterday we went to see some people, who had a roof garden. Which was awesome because they had flowers! And its been a long time since I was able to take pictures of flowers. So I was happy.

But before we went there. We went to see a lady who showed us a satellite map of Israel and Jordan. She showed us how things that were said in the Bible, such as the first prophecy of Yahushua. About how the serpent would crush His heel and the seed of the woman would crush its head. It has a literal picture of it in the layout of the land. Its really quite neat! I can’t describe it you would have to see it the map. She also showed us about the stars and how Yahuweh taught Job from them. It is really quite interesting. And you never woulda guessed, and I can’t explain it, its just Wow! Every night we look up and see the stars and its actually the whole story of the Bible! Who woulda-thunk-it!

Anyway its just been a good week. Learned lots, got lots of sun (we’re proof of that because we’re sunburnt), and had lots of fun!

This was typed on 9/15/2012 but will not be posted until a later date.

Trust and belief

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Father has been showing me things, that I never really thought about to this extent. For a long time, I said that I was ready for everything, He would want me to do. The last couple of weeks, I’ve been praying and reading this book series named “Revelation Special Ops” by Precarious Yates. It’s a fictional book, and isn’t 100% accurate about the end times (but who is). It gave me much to think on, such as; am I really ready for this, am I where I need to be before He sends me out to do His work?

Yes my faith is stronger than it has been for a while. But I still put Him on the side lines, and I’ve really truthfully done that for too long. I was getting back on track for a time but I once again slid back into old patterns. Sometimes the hardest things to do are the best things. Something else this book gave me to think on, is the characters love for the Word, to praise Him, and they prayed before they did anything. They put Him in the center of their daily lives! Something I have failed in and failed miserably in.

He has been reminding me that I need to put Him first and trust Him. I know that when things go bad, I will only have Him to look to. Yes I will have my parents, but I can’t rely on my parents relationship with Him. I need to learn now to put Him first, then everything else will follow.

I know this will not be easy, but Trust usually isn’t. But it is better to put my trust in Him, my Abba Father and His Son, my Savior, than to put it in men.

Psa 118:8  It is better to take refuge in יהוה Than to trust in man.
Psa 118:9  It is better to take refuge in יהוה Than to trust in princes.

Because when things get hard He will be with me no matter what. Even when people fall away left and right.

Psa 37:5  Commit your way to יהוה, And trust in Him, and He does it.

There are times when He tells us things and they seem impossible but If we trust in Him, He does it for us. The miracles that He’s done all these years, that are written about and that no one knows about, except those who it happened to. Why can’t He do it now, He can and He will, if we trust Him. We only need as much faith as the size of a mustard seed and we could move mountains!

<- This is a mustard seed. Imagine having faith that small and we could say (with His backup of course) to this mountain be moved to another place and it would be done!

Mat 17:20  And Yahushua said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you.

Mat 21:21  Yahushua answered and said unto them, Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this which is done to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; it shall be done.

Mar 11:23  For verily I say unto you, That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.

The basis of faith is trust, because without trust we cannot have faith. It is as simple as that. The hardest part is believing/having faith, but again it comes back to trust. You cannot believe/have faith a person if you do not trust them first, right? So therefore you cannot believe until you trust.

If a friend told you to close your eyes and fall backward trusting him/her to catch you. Would you do it? Would you believe that the friend would not let you fall on your behind? If so then you trusted them enough to know that they would stay true to their word. So acting on the belief that your friend will not let you fall, you are also trusting them.

Does that make any sense to you? 

So when we trust our Abba, that means that we also believe Him.

I’m still learning, and I have a long road ahead of me, but I am looking forward to it. I Believe that He will make a way for me to do His will no matter how impossible it seems. I trust that He will be with me and shall never leave me nor forsake me.

Have a good week. And ponder on this as you go through the daily hum drum of life, during school, and at work: Do you trust our Abba Father, and His Son enough to close your eyes and trust that they will catch you, just like you would your friends?

Revelation

I know many Christians believe in the Rapture. There is one part in the Bible that says:

Mat 24:40  Then shall two be in the field; the one shall be taken, and the other left.
Mat 24:41  Two women shall be grinding at the mill; the one shall be taken, and the other left.

A lot of people say that these verses are talking about the rapture. But is this our Abba’s nature? To take us out of suffering? Christians, Messianic’s, and Jews have been suffering for centuries. He didn’t take them out of the world then, why would He do it now? Is Salvation a free ticket out of enduring the end times?

What about those left on the earth that are not saved? Would we not be ignoring the great commission? I know many say that the majority of Christians will be taken up and some Christians remain to do the rest of the work. That’s what the movie “Left Behind” indicates, that the majority are taken and the rest are left, but, isn’t that being selfish. Leaving someone else to suffer while you go and have the easiest time up there while your fellow brother dies?

This does not seem to be our Fathers nature. He let His own Son suffer for us, and now we say we want an easy ride out of everything. The people in China, Russia, and many other countries suffer persecution, die for their faith, are put in prison. Yet us in the west know nothing of it, and just want a free ride. Everything we could want: fame, money, a good name, reputation, and connections.

Did any of Fathers true disciples have a easy life? Even after Yahushua’s death. Look at Paul (Sha’ul) he died a very agonizing death, Peter was crucified upside down, John was put on an Island and most likely never made it off. Father did not “rapture” them out then. So why now? If we all leave who will show the Jews the Messiah, who will encourage their fellow brothers when times are hard. From way up there are we going to look down and say,”terrific job, keep it up, we will see you when all this is over” to our brothers and sisters. While we sit up there in His presence? I do not think that is fair, nor that is my Abba’s nature.

Look from beginning to end in the Bible about this. Think about this. Talk to Yahuweh about it. Find out from Him what He has in store for His people in this great time of trouble.

Struggles

I am sure many other than myself have struggled with this, but for now I will put my own personal experience in.

For years I have struggled with low self esteem. I struggled with it severally when I was between the ages of 8-15. I used to sit in my room and write hate letters to myself for hours, and was never noticed except by my mom but even she didn’t know the full extent of it. I also distanced myself form my family because I thought that I made them look bad. I didn’t confess this until years later or if I did it was taken lightly.

When we moved back to Canada I didn’t have the luxury of locking myself up in a room so I switched to just doing it in my head. So that was the end of the “letters” but not necessarily the end of the words that went onto the paper. I hid it better but got into more things that I really shouldn’t have. You see, from the time I was 7 (actually before that but that’s another story), my parents were so busy with other things. I saw them practically everyday, but it wasn’t the seeing them part it was the part that they had no time to sit and talk. My brother and I went to school, so there was no time during the day, and on weekends my mom was usually on the phone interpreting for my dad or we went to see another couple (which all us kids hated going). There was no family time that year. Then we moved to Australia, that was a year that is muddled together. Also that was the year that I started the hate letters. We then moved back to Canada, and eventually started traveling in a 24 foot travel trailer (21 feet living space). We started spending a little more family time, but there still wasn’t much as we traveled with another couple that always had to have a 2 hour meeting everyday followed by a often lunch of thank you, and then another often 1-3 hour latter in the day, and another quite often after supper too. Mom was also -when not over there with dad- on the phone interpreting most of the day. So I was often left with the cooking, looking after and putting to bed the younger ones. I grew up really fast and although with all this responsibility, I still had very low self esteem.

I had considered cutting myself, I was close to it but I knew I couldn’t handle the pain and my parents would find out quick because I wore tee shirts quite a lot and didn’t have many long sleeved ones.

One of my main points of low self esteem was my size. I was always large for my age. So I thought maybe I could remedy it with anorexia or bulimia, I was again really close to it and only Yahuweh knows why I couldn’t do it. But even at the age of twelve and never having been exposed to it openly before, I knew what it would do to me and my family.

I was convinced that I didn’t matter, I didn’t have the amazing testimonies my brother did, or go through difficult trials like he did, I was convinced I didn’t have a role to play. This went on for some years. I still struggle with it today. I don’t have the stories that my brother or dad does. I was always very quiet, I stood in the back corner but yet people said that I lit up the room just by being there but I never could believe them. I still have a hard time. Maybe it is because of all the blackness I see inside of myself that I can’t see it that way. I used to feel that they said something nice about everyone else so they had to say something about me. This is a mistake of mine. I should have accepted what they said instead of shrugging it off and saying horrible things to myself that it wasn’t true and it was just to make me feel better.

A couple of months ago I finally told my dad about it all. We worked through it, not all of it but a good majority of it. I know this will be one of my hardest battles to fight. I‘m not victorious yet. There is a long hard battle to fight but hopefully the battle will be shorter than I think.

I don’t want this to be a downer but an encouragement to those out there going through the same thing, you’re not the only one. There are those that have gone through the same or similar. And no matter how far you seem to be in the pit, there is always a way out through Yahushua HaMessiach (The Messiah).

questions and thoughts

We all know that Yahushua came and was crucified on a stake (or tree).

But why do Christians have such an emphasis on the cross? I am really curious on this subject because I was listening to a Micheal W. Smith cd and there was a song “O’ the wonderful cross” and it made me curious. Why the wonderful cross why not “The Wonderful Father who gave His Son to die for us”? He died on the stake yes but that is not what saved us It was. His blood that saved us not a piece of wood! 

It’s just a question.

Shabbat is over now and it is 1st day (sunday). I am looking forward to the next time we go to the library it is so much fun finding books and the walking. Just getting out into the fresh air is enough for me.

I had an interesting conversation with some friends. It was about the topic of makeup and how we look at our selves.

We talked about why people wear makeup because they don’t like how they look. So to cover it up they wear makeup, we look in the mirror and see some one, you see all the outward things that you don’t like about yourself. But we came to an interesting factor, most people when they walk into a room they look at other people and say to themselves “wow she’s really pretty or she’s the size I wish I was” and things like that. But we don’t see ourselves through other peoples eyes, everyone has beauty, whether it is the world view or just true beauty. 

Proverbs says: Pro 31:30  Loveliness is deceptive And prettiness is vain, A woman who fears יהוה is to be praised. 

Next time you see someone even if you can only pick out one thing encouraging ie. the scarf they are wearing brightens their face, or that bracelet is really nice. Things like that, but don’t flatter, unless it’s genuine then that is good but flattery is not.

Did you know Roman generals when paraded through the streets after a conquest were put on a gold chariot, their faces were painted red, and wore purple. they had a slave behind them holding a wreath over their head, and whispering in their ear the whole time “remember you are just a man”. Because all that flattery can go to the head and really muck some one up. It is better when genuinely said than just said because you want to get on someones good side.

 

I will leave you to think on that. Have a good week.